Can God use me when my life is a mess?
Nearly a year ago now I decided I was going to give serious time, energy and resources into this “thing” that God was calling me to do. I wasn’t sure what to call it. I for sure wasn’t sure how to execute it and I surely wasn’t confident of much of anything other than God’s prompting on my life.
Eventually, with God’s grace and the help of some amazingly talented and smart people with a heart for this mission, Robin May Ministries has come to life. Central to RMM is my mission: My transparent teachings will help you embrace your brokenness and help you discover your true value and identity.
This is my mission because this is my life! In case anyone ever doubts it, my life is messy. Despite my heart’s desire for this mission and for sharing God’s faithfulness, I continue to struggle with sin in my life. Thinking, writing, and sharing about God’s faithfulness here on a regular basis doesn’t isolate me from my own brokenness. It doesn’t make my life shiny and perfect.
I still yell at my husband and say unfair and selfish things. I still battle jealousy when I see a perfectly-decorated home. I still fight to relinquish control of my kids’ lives. I still sometimes wake up ungrateful. And it doesn’t end there. My sin battles are many and often they are exhausting.
Maybe this is why sometimes I sit down to write a post and am flooded with feelings of inadequacy. I hear that voice in my head that says, “You’re an imposter! What do you know about encouraging other people in their faith journey when yours is such a mess!”
Thankfully, God hasn’t allowed me to get stuck in that lie. He trumps the enemy’s deceit and reminds me that He has ALWAYS used broken, messy people - just like me, and just like you. He gently says to me, as He did to Moses, “Robin, it doesn’t matter who you are. It matters who I AM.”
I am not sure how God plans to use you today. Maybe He isn’t calling you to write a blog post, but He quite possibly might be asking you to share how your faith has changed your life with a friend. He might be asking you to give sacrificially to a cause He’s laid on your heart. He might be asking you to step out and faith and make that job or relationship change that you’ve been putting off.
Whatever it is God puts before you today, I encourage you to grab His hand and take a step of faith. Let’s not wait until our spiritual life looks perfect or until we can answer all the tough questions to do what He’s called us to do. Let’s embrace that our God can use all our brokenness and offer ourselves before Him today. It is here that we will find our true value and identity - and the peace that comes with it.