New Year’s Revelations

Here we are.

Some of us are embracing 2019 and the opportunity to throw off the old and (re)create a new and improved version of ourselves. And yet for others of us, New Years is a reminder of years past: resolutions left unrealized, goals given up on and dreams disregarded. No matter where you find yourself, I've been there. Perhaps no other day on my calendar has been as bittersweet as New Years.

I got married on a beautiful, picture-perfect snowy New Years night in 1994.

On New Years 1999, I sat miserably in the corner of the party, embarrassed about my cheap dress, disgusted by my weight and convinced I was the woman every other woman in the room was looking at to make herself feel good about her appearance.

And on New Years in 2008, my heart broke as I escorted my mom to heaven.

So no matter where you find yourself this New Years, thank you for allowing me to be a part of it. In doing so, you are making my dream for 2019 come to life.

My dream of launching Robin May Ministries, a ministry designed as a safe place where women connect their fears and brokenness to each other and the narrative God desires for our lives, has been years in the making.

You see, I’ve long sat on this nudging in my heart to share how God has transformed my incredibly broken life and sense of self, and now that nudging has grown into this resounding call that I can no longer deny.

For years, I was convinced that I had nothing special to share with the world. I allowed the enemy to remind me that I wasn’t enough, not for my kids, my husband and even for myself. I wasn’t anyone special; in fact, I was anything but.

And then 2017 rolled around and with it came the most challenging season of my life, and yet perhaps the most definitive. In February of that year, my 18-year-old son, Matt, went from being a vibrant and healthy college student to a leukemic fighting for his life. His battle with cancer changed me. Actually, God changed me through it. He showed me that He is willing and able to take my seemingly insignificant insights of this life and use them to help women connect more meaningfully to other women, to God and to the version of themselves that God redeemed through Jesus.

He reminded me of who I am and that he has woven the details of my life’s story to help me connect with women like you. I am a motherless daughter, a wife of one, mother of two, sister of too many to count (not really, but I do have 9 siblings). A former journalist, I started selling drugs to subsidize my writing habit and except for a stint in vocational ministry, I have been a medical sales professional ever since. 
(Yes, poop does pay my bills!) I have equal and opposing loves: food and exercise. I think that the joy of life is in the journey and that the journey is meant to be shared with others and with our creator.

Today as I begin Robin May Ministries, my prayer is that you will join me on this journey and that together we will learn to embrace our brokenness and discover our true value and identity. Follow me here and let’s take on 2019 together. And in the spirit of connection, tag someone in your life who might enjoy more posts like this one.